“And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in you.” Psalm 39:7 It’s been 6 months since I lost my job. It’s been 6 months since God has told me these words “Wait on me.” But in these last 6 months I’ve learned a lot about what it means to trust … More When God Tells You To Wait.
I am guilty of these words. As someone who has spent a handful of years in a position of “Mental Performance Coach”, listening to people and their struggles, sometimes I wonder if I had really been listening at all. Even in marriage, I realize the biggest pain points have been when either myself or Steve, … More “I hear you, but.”
Thursday 4:20AM. My alarm goes off, and I drag myself out of bed to start work. I sit down at the dining room table, my makeshift office, type in the password to my laptop to login. It doesn’t work. I try it again, and again. Password Incorrect. I email my boss who is in Vancouver, … More Finding peace in the midst of loss.
I’ve been thinking a lot. Maybe I’ve been sitting in the proverbial valley so long that I’d forgotten what it was like to just enjoy God. We’re about halfway done our time in Santa Barbara, and it’s nothing like I’d worried it out to be. Typical. This experience, this time, is my time of rest … More Simple Faith On Sabado Tarde.
Philippians 4:6. The verse really popped as I read it while sifting through Instagram stories. Surprisingly, God still uses a time-suck like Instagram to call me back to Himself. He really is extremely gracious. The Insta Story read: “Do not be anxious about anything. Keyword: ANYTHING.” Guhhhhhhhh. Yesssss….but howwww… Don’t be worried about anything? If … More “Do not be anxious about anything. Keyword: anything.”
“I don’t want to go back to Ottawa.” This is what I told Steve the Wednesday we started our long journey back to Farnham from Capernwray Hall. These intense feelings of depression seemed to hit me as we sat at Carnforth train station under a dark and gloomy English sky. I didn’t want to move … More “I shall not want” – Managing FOMO, relationships, loneliness & change.
As a woman, I have this amazing mental capacity to hold onto something for a long time. Most men will agree with me on this. Okay, so that isn’t exactly “amazing” but it’s unreal how easy it is for me to fixate and stubbornly hold onto a grudge, bitterness, un-forgiveness, etc etc. But as I … More Overcoming my stubbornness.
No Other Name – an Ottawa-wide conference that takes place on Good Friday every year, where hundreds of youth from all over the city gather to encounter God, and to understand what Christ accomplished on the cross. As the worship team, we had been practicing a solid set list since December. Lots of work and … More When Doubts Drag You Down.
“This right here is the problem, God. It’s always my fault. Why is it always my fault?” I wanted to be completely open and honest with myself and God. If I was frustrated and angry at my current situation, it was because this lie of things “always being my fault,” was what I believed, and … More “It’s always my fault.”
I had an intense November. I wrote about all of it. Then I never posted it, because I’m a flaky, indecisive millennial. Jokes aside, it was better that I didn’t post it then because I still had lots to digest and think through. So here goes. Back in November I listened to two sermons, one … More How I Found Peace In Chaos.